Post by dallan on Jun 8, 2007 23:27:09 GMT 3
Kirjoitettu Dallanin onnettomalla enkuntaidolla ja on täynnä virheitä.
Ei englanniksi siksi, että ihannoisin sillä vieraalla kielellä kirjoittamista. Päinvastoin en pidä siitä yhtään. Kieli on tämä siksi, koska tarina tuli alunperin englanninkieliselle MLP-foorumille. Tulee katoamaan täältä pian kuin laukkaavahevonen poni mäen taa horisontiin.
Oh, hi there! You are interested in hearing about me? But why? Is it because I am a little different than most of ponies here or do you just need help with your homework? Hey, why you are not answering?
*sigh* It was one of those dreams again. I often see dreams about creatures who are interested in me. Usually I hate those dreams. Hate is ugly feeling but it would be stupid to blame that feeling itself because it doen't allow me to be happy. Sure there is some causes that make me to feel hate. So I am blaming lack of freedom. I can't be happy here with all things that I have because I keep yearning for something else. Feelings are sometimes so stupid because i'm not even able to tell myself what that something else in somewhere else could be. No wonder that other boys laughed to me when I told them about these feelings. They told me that we have everything here. We have adventures and rainbows here so there just can't be something important that we are lacking. But it is not what we have but what we don't know. Yeah, we are boy ponies and thats why girl ponies world is forbidden zone for us. We can't tell what there is because anyone of us haven't ever been there. We are not allowed to see how girl bonies are living their lives. I don't miss some kind of weird material things which we don't have here in our small pasture. Lack of information just ruins my life because all those dreams and all those questions don't let me be. Our pasture is, by the way, called ´ABC´ and lately even the problem of meaning of that abbreviation has caused me a lot of pain. They never told us what it means! My best quess is that it is an abbreviation for "Annual boy carnage" but I'm not sure. This whole place just feels some kind of prison for those who are born to be inferior.
I do not really know why we all were born to be boys. I don't think those things much because it feels that all depends how we are using words like "purpose." What is purpose of being a boy pony? Well, when pile of grains form a pile of grains? Clearly there doesn't seem to be strict line for that although there clearly seems to be some rules how we are using that word. One grain isn't a pile and one million grains which are close enough clearly is pile. Surely there seems to be some rules how we are using a word "purpose" but they just are harder to find for me. I must admit that I don't really know what a question "what is purpose of being a boy pony?" really means. Maybe it would be worth to consider. I just haven't done it yet.
Another thing which I don't understand is this whole newborn thing. Some ponies are foals, some ponies are adult and maybe even I have been a foal one day. I can't remember those days but it may be worth to believe. One of my friends once told me that foal-ponies + time is equal to adult ponies. I don't know is there any rules how to count with words which meaning isn't some kind of object which I have been taught to use in my calculations. Even my sigma-symbol doesn't help me with that. Fortunately it doesn't feel important anyways. More interesting problem, at least for me, is where those newborn ponies come from. I doubt that they have existed forever because that thing would contradict with that time plus foals thing. So if time allows foals to become adults foals must come from somewhere but noone has told me where. Someone could think that this thing really isn't important because we exist anyways and foals come from somewhere anyways so why bother. I don't know. I can't really stop myself thinking that because none of those recently came newborns aren't boy ponies anymore and we boys are already feeling very lonely here. I ask you to forgive me that because I just don't have much anymore. You can exist with few other boys here but there isn't many of us anymore.
I can't even ask that foal question from that very wise pony who told me that foals become adults. He just disappeared one day without warning. He was old. All we boys are old but he was in worse condition than we others are and he was first to disappear. I think that disappearing and beauty have some kind of dangerous connection so I wash my grey plastic very often and try to keep my hair in nice condition. That old wise pony, who is no more nowadays, told us other boys something about wastebaskets. He said that wastebasket world is a world where disappeared ponies go and they continue their existence there. I do believe that he just went into that world because he even knew something about that place. Maybe he found a way to there and never came back. I just wonder why he left us others here and didn't took us with him but he always was wiser than me so it is no wonder that I am not a right pony to explain motives behind his actions. Maybe I will meet him in that world someday and then he will explain me everything.
One girl bony told me that we boys are discontinued and that is why there is not any new boys anymore. It's shameful but I am not aware what that word means. We boys don't interact much with those girls out there so maybe thats why I don't always understand their language. I don't understand it but I fear that the fact that we are discontinued means that soon there isn't any boys left here. Girls don't seem no need us. Maybe we are some kind of lowlifes in pony world, twisted freaks of nature. I understand that someone must be inferior to other if it is wanted that being better is possible. It doesn't even seem that someone could be good if noone weren't worse than she is. But that doesn't explain why relations like "better than" should apply to being a some kind of pony. I don't understand why some ponies should be inferior to others.
More beautiful ponies seem to move to wastebasket world later then less beautiful ponies so maybe this thing has something to do with beauty. I would consider myself ugly but those girls really are beautiful. I don't understand why new boys couldn't also be beautiful but maybe being girl is more beautiful than being boy is. I don't know is my hairy feet ugly thing or not but because there is boys without hairy feet. Beauty coulda also have something to do with other things than appearance. That would explain why girls are more beautiful than we boys are and that could be reason why we are discontinued.
There really seems to be some kind of inner beauty in those girls. Some of us boys have told about some kind of strange derises that girls make them to feel. They say that they are hard to describe with words. Its natural because we don't have any words which could help us to feel things or imagine feelings. But boys also told me that although those feelings feel positive and are nice to have in the first place, they don't let them go! Maybe this has something to do with reasoning behind...
"No Steamer, I don't want to play with you. Don't you see that I am counting with words."
"But you told me that you don't know how to."
"That's true."
Where was I? Oh, I was thinking those feelings. Boys told me that they are unusually resiliant. They seem to assail them periodically during periords when they are left unsatisfied. Poor guys. They even told me that those feelings are unusually intense. Yes, they can be linked with conception of pleasure but failure to satisfy them is in turn very painful and unpleasant and there really isn't a wat to satisfy them because girls don't give us a possibility to do that. Maybe this all can be connected with the fact that we are boys. It seems that it really is best that we live here isolated from girls. I somehow feel that they are more intelligent than we are so probably they know what is best to us all. They don't need us and we don't have to need them.
Aarg... Now my head hurts. "No Steamer, I can't play with you because my head hurts."
Ei englanniksi siksi, että ihannoisin sillä vieraalla kielellä kirjoittamista. Päinvastoin en pidä siitä yhtään. Kieli on tämä siksi, koska tarina tuli alunperin englanninkieliselle MLP-foorumille. Tulee katoamaan täältä pian kuin laukkaava
Oh, hi there! You are interested in hearing about me? But why? Is it because I am a little different than most of ponies here or do you just need help with your homework? Hey, why you are not answering?
*sigh* It was one of those dreams again. I often see dreams about creatures who are interested in me. Usually I hate those dreams. Hate is ugly feeling but it would be stupid to blame that feeling itself because it doen't allow me to be happy. Sure there is some causes that make me to feel hate. So I am blaming lack of freedom. I can't be happy here with all things that I have because I keep yearning for something else. Feelings are sometimes so stupid because i'm not even able to tell myself what that something else in somewhere else could be. No wonder that other boys laughed to me when I told them about these feelings. They told me that we have everything here. We have adventures and rainbows here so there just can't be something important that we are lacking. But it is not what we have but what we don't know. Yeah, we are boy ponies and thats why girl ponies world is forbidden zone for us. We can't tell what there is because anyone of us haven't ever been there. We are not allowed to see how girl bonies are living their lives. I don't miss some kind of weird material things which we don't have here in our small pasture. Lack of information just ruins my life because all those dreams and all those questions don't let me be. Our pasture is, by the way, called ´ABC´ and lately even the problem of meaning of that abbreviation has caused me a lot of pain. They never told us what it means! My best quess is that it is an abbreviation for "Annual boy carnage" but I'm not sure. This whole place just feels some kind of prison for those who are born to be inferior.
I do not really know why we all were born to be boys. I don't think those things much because it feels that all depends how we are using words like "purpose." What is purpose of being a boy pony? Well, when pile of grains form a pile of grains? Clearly there doesn't seem to be strict line for that although there clearly seems to be some rules how we are using that word. One grain isn't a pile and one million grains which are close enough clearly is pile. Surely there seems to be some rules how we are using a word "purpose" but they just are harder to find for me. I must admit that I don't really know what a question "what is purpose of being a boy pony?" really means. Maybe it would be worth to consider. I just haven't done it yet.
Another thing which I don't understand is this whole newborn thing. Some ponies are foals, some ponies are adult and maybe even I have been a foal one day. I can't remember those days but it may be worth to believe. One of my friends once told me that foal-ponies + time is equal to adult ponies. I don't know is there any rules how to count with words which meaning isn't some kind of object which I have been taught to use in my calculations. Even my sigma-symbol doesn't help me with that. Fortunately it doesn't feel important anyways. More interesting problem, at least for me, is where those newborn ponies come from. I doubt that they have existed forever because that thing would contradict with that time plus foals thing. So if time allows foals to become adults foals must come from somewhere but noone has told me where. Someone could think that this thing really isn't important because we exist anyways and foals come from somewhere anyways so why bother. I don't know. I can't really stop myself thinking that because none of those recently came newborns aren't boy ponies anymore and we boys are already feeling very lonely here. I ask you to forgive me that because I just don't have much anymore. You can exist with few other boys here but there isn't many of us anymore.
I can't even ask that foal question from that very wise pony who told me that foals become adults. He just disappeared one day without warning. He was old. All we boys are old but he was in worse condition than we others are and he was first to disappear. I think that disappearing and beauty have some kind of dangerous connection so I wash my grey plastic very often and try to keep my hair in nice condition. That old wise pony, who is no more nowadays, told us other boys something about wastebaskets. He said that wastebasket world is a world where disappeared ponies go and they continue their existence there. I do believe that he just went into that world because he even knew something about that place. Maybe he found a way to there and never came back. I just wonder why he left us others here and didn't took us with him but he always was wiser than me so it is no wonder that I am not a right pony to explain motives behind his actions. Maybe I will meet him in that world someday and then he will explain me everything.
One girl bony told me that we boys are discontinued and that is why there is not any new boys anymore. It's shameful but I am not aware what that word means. We boys don't interact much with those girls out there so maybe thats why I don't always understand their language. I don't understand it but I fear that the fact that we are discontinued means that soon there isn't any boys left here. Girls don't seem no need us. Maybe we are some kind of lowlifes in pony world, twisted freaks of nature. I understand that someone must be inferior to other if it is wanted that being better is possible. It doesn't even seem that someone could be good if noone weren't worse than she is. But that doesn't explain why relations like "better than" should apply to being a some kind of pony. I don't understand why some ponies should be inferior to others.
More beautiful ponies seem to move to wastebasket world later then less beautiful ponies so maybe this thing has something to do with beauty. I would consider myself ugly but those girls really are beautiful. I don't understand why new boys couldn't also be beautiful but maybe being girl is more beautiful than being boy is. I don't know is my hairy feet ugly thing or not but because there is boys without hairy feet. Beauty coulda also have something to do with other things than appearance. That would explain why girls are more beautiful than we boys are and that could be reason why we are discontinued.
There really seems to be some kind of inner beauty in those girls. Some of us boys have told about some kind of strange derises that girls make them to feel. They say that they are hard to describe with words. Its natural because we don't have any words which could help us to feel things or imagine feelings. But boys also told me that although those feelings feel positive and are nice to have in the first place, they don't let them go! Maybe this has something to do with reasoning behind...
"No Steamer, I don't want to play with you. Don't you see that I am counting with words."
"But you told me that you don't know how to."
"That's true."
Where was I? Oh, I was thinking those feelings. Boys told me that they are unusually resiliant. They seem to assail them periodically during periords when they are left unsatisfied. Poor guys. They even told me that those feelings are unusually intense. Yes, they can be linked with conception of pleasure but failure to satisfy them is in turn very painful and unpleasant and there really isn't a wat to satisfy them because girls don't give us a possibility to do that. Maybe this all can be connected with the fact that we are boys. It seems that it really is best that we live here isolated from girls. I somehow feel that they are more intelligent than we are so probably they know what is best to us all. They don't need us and we don't have to need them.
Aarg... Now my head hurts. "No Steamer, I can't play with you because my head hurts."